LOVE..

What a fanciful notion---that of being in love...falling in love..caring about somebody----some ONE person so much you contemplate no life or a lack of completeness without THE ONE. What brings us to this nelamai? Namma nammaLiye yemaathikkaromaa illa what exactly happens when people..for want of a more apropos phrase..fall in love?? I was talking to a very close friend of mine a couple of days back (name not disclosed to protect identity :P)...and he teased me about indulging myself in an overdose of Shakespeare plays and reads. When I challenged his point about me and repudiated his allegation, he pacified me with comments about me being too sweet, but that that was, apparently, not the way the "great" look at love. He tried, in vain, to explain that it is not a concocted tale of mixes from "Romeo and Juliet", "Alaipaayuthey" and other such fantastic ideas, but that indeed, it is an intimate, committed realtionship where one has to work out the practicalities of what's happening and where the future orients itself to face us. Hmm..Food for thought. Idhellaam making sense yet?!!

Why am I even writing this blog? This is the constant question that's popping through my head as I furiously type, even now. Why?? What purpose is achieved through this? Sadly, I have absolutely no clue where this is all coming from..I can say one thing, though. Since I started to immerse myself in a mix of people and cultures, there has been this tremendous passion, a zest to explore. A prod. A nudge, constantly inspiring me...trying to awaken me to better myself, to look around and see things, not only as they are, but also as a vision of how they could be....Haha, talk about disconnected though-processes.....Somehow, some way.....My threads of thought always make the ultimate sense inside my head, and somehow, they come out random and in strands. Maybe I could engage an expert to rationalize all this into a continuous flow. Now that's an idea!

But, getting back to, or attempting to get back to, the topic at hand.."LOVE". Adhu yenna emotion? What are the feelings that zing through us everytime we contemplate this? Speaking for myself, I have, so far, known and experienced many kinds of love. A mother's love, the type that is unique of a Dad's caring and affection, my brother and his "non-outpouring" sort of feeling for me, the lavish attention I gain from all my best pals, cousins, and family.....Also intertwined with all these varying kinds, some unexplainable kinds of love that are...well, unexplainable. What else can I say about these attachments which spur so much emotion in me, and yet, make me realize there is so much more I don't even know?? I guess all this just prompts me to sense, with a dawning comprehension of things..that there is a LOT to give. The heart, though physically not infinite, could hold so many powerful emotions that are indefintely stretched. All encompassing feelings and sentiments. Care. Possession. Undying sense of loyalty. To me, all these words are so swirled up together, that I cannot fathom a wholesome relationship of true love with any of these meanings lost along the way..'Cause then, it just would not make any kind of sense to me.

Of course, to end on a more relevant note...the most noteworthy of all these "loves" is, of course something we all yearn for, and rarely define. The kind that I started this blog with, the kind that wells up all these emotions in you, and something much more. It's a more personal sort of caring, a more possessive one, and yet...within the confines of the couple's world, the boundaries of affection are limitless....! Aahhh. What a feeling, hm? Someday maybe.

With that, I end this one true blog of mine..So many more undefined "blanks" inside my mind's eye....indefatigable spirals of concentrated intentions and purposes....Seri, naan idhoda nirutha poren...Will channelize and rope in some more blanks and dish out a better blog next time..Coming soon. Take care, all. Keep feeling, keep smiling, keep on loving.. :)